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Posted 11-06-2008 at 05:50 AM by Ol' Patty
It is likely that the life of a very special person to me will be extinguished today. I cried for the first time in... I don't even know. I didn't think I even could any more. Or should. I don't even know why. Self-pity. Sense of loss. It felt good though. A release maybe? I couldn't even control it. Bah...

It is funny how our delusions of strength can be so easily shattered. At least for me anyway. I always thought I would be happy for him when his suffering ended. It...
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Infinite Spring

Posted 05-09-2008 at 12:19 PM by Ol' Patty
Updated 05-09-2008 at 02:20 PM by Ol' Patty (Typo)
Winter's cold embrace gives way to springs loving caress,
New life blossoms everywhere I turn full of hopes and dreams of the young,

You feed my heart with love and nurture it with kindness,
the seeds of happiness have taken root in the soil of my life,

I've opened my eyes to the blue sky above and felt the warmth of the sun,
I now know why little plants push through the ground to reach for the stars,

So let's grow our gardens together...
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We talked.

Posted 04-20-2008 at 02:00 PM by Ol' Patty
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We talked... Me and a few of my good friends were hanging out and talking over some whiskey and beer about a week ago. We talked about a bunch of stuff. Past, present and future. We talked about all the people we used to know back in the day, in elementary school or even before. We talked about how everyone has changed since then and about all the shit that we did through our lives so far. We talked about the things we wanted and the things we still want. We talked
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My time

Posted 04-20-2008 at 01:59 PM by Ol' Patty
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This little vacation has done me alot of good. I see things alot clearer now. I'm not so caught up in expecting things to be a certain way anymore. Everything can and will change in the blink of an eye. All you have to do is put one foot in front of the other and the things you will see around you are infinite. It's nice to sit in one spot and rest for a while... It can make you feel secure and safe. Sure of yourself and everything around you. But... don't let that
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Let's see...

Posted 04-20-2008 at 01:57 PM by Ol' Patty
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Well.. I've been doing alot of thinking lately... about everything really. I'm not the person I want to be. It's something I have come to realize more and more. I'm not dissatisfied with my life or anything like that. I think I have a pretty decent life right now... The future is uncertain. what else is new? I'm not afraid of what I don't know... I yearn for it.

So why am I disliking the person I am? Don't get me wrong. I love myself. I'm just not
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