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Originally Posted by Ginevra
You know, I'm mean to myself and don't let myself believe it just because it's nice, but I once was a christian and I do kind of miss that feeling. I can understand why people are reluctant to let go of it with little reward other than being logical to gain from it. The main feeling is being able to ask for help and always having someone else's hands to put it into. Being able to "hope to god" something will or will not happen.
But the truth for me is that if I do that then it stops me from going out and doing what needs to be done. Because as far as I believe, God's not really going to help me, even if it seems a nice idea, even if I might feel I deserve it. So I let it go. Also as I grew up I lost it like I lost the belief in Santa Claus. So I already felt I was faking it.
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yea, i miss that feeling too. It's kinda lonely not believing it because you can't 'lean on God' when things are hard. If I could, I'd probably still believe it, just because it'd be easier with my whole family being christian and everything, but I just can't. Either you believe something or you don't, and even if I'd like to, I just don't believe in traditional Christian doctrine anymore. I don't go around trying to alienate my relatives though by trying to take their faith away, as long as religion isnt really effecting them negatively, I'm fine with letting them have their beliefs and keeping mine to myself.