Well; i dated this guy on and off for 2 years then we started dating this past june and then broke up again in november. he had already ordered my promise ring and we decided we really wanted to be together so the ring was suposed to be my early X-mas gift. But then over Thanksgiving my best friend came into town and well slept with him... so since he knew it was going to be over between me and him he also cheated on me with another girl. Then after the best friend left town me and him hung out and i almost lost my virginity to him.[[ he was always trying to pressure me for sex]]. But thank god i didnt do it an hour later he broke up with me. and started dating his new girlfriend Alyssa.
well; i tried doing the right thing and being nice to her and him.
but eventually things got out of hand and she hates me. well; when they
were on a break cuz she slept with someone ealse i hooked up with him. so when they got back together she told him that if we tried being friends again she was going to kick my ass and his.
well; we continued to be friends anyway. but then this past week we got in a really big fight. and when i should have bit my tounge i didnt and i think i screwed up every chance i had of ever being his friend again. and i didnt know it was going to hurt this bad i still care about him alot even though he loves someone ealse i dont know what to do but he yelled at me and used laungauge. ive never felt this shitty in my life. i cant get over it or him no matter how hard i try me and him broke up almost 5 months ago and i have yet to let go. i still catch myself thinking about him and sometimes i still cry over him.
part of me knew it was never going to work out between me and him because we are compeletly different and im really stubborn and like to speak my mind. i belive in honestly... plus my parents and family hated him...
so my question to you is what do i do now