just remember that your mom is watching you and that no matter what she would want you to be happy it will all get better but for the mean time talk to her in prayer i talk to my grandma in prayer all the time she died 3 days before christmas and i didnt want to believe it but i had to except it now all i can do is thank her for everything and talk to her as if she were still here. she was my idol now shes gone and so you should start praying. im sure she would love for you to still talk to her and you can still ask for her advice it just might seem like she cant answer but she can it just takes time good luck.